man,

i belong in norman.
i've had a great time this past weekend, and i might just get someone new.

bathroom races

i miss you kid.

A Rocket To The Moon.

I've been thinking all day.
it's been 18 months, and 23 days ago.
so much has changed in those 18 months,
it's mind-blowing.
overwhelming.
impossible.

it's like i'm saying goodbye, watching someone i know i'll miss walk farther and farther away.
it's a feeling of emptiness that makes me wanna cry, but it also amazes me at the same time.
idk.

You're just a phone call away.

Everyday you seem further away.
I do my best to throw my pride aside and apologize, cut myself down a notch.
I know I said some things that hurt but
It took 97 missed calls to finally get over you.


I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm great, I'm empty.
I'm content, apathetic, and I wanna change drastically.
Thing is I can never seem to do that alone.

I want a guy like this:

-I want someone that cares. Like, really cares. Not just the "I care about you," and then new subject type of thing. I want someone to care enough about me to tell me why they care.
-Someone who can make me laugh and someone who isn't always serious, but knows how and when to be.
-Someone comforting. If I mess up, for them to tell me it'll be okay.
-Someone supportive. Self explainable.
-Someone who's not sex crazed, and someone who says I love you only when they mean it.

There are more standards, but I just really thought I'd put that up there for the fun of it. (:

but i still have just one more question on my mind.

chaz and i made up. we made a pact to never fight, and never stop being friends again.


lauren, i love you more than anyone in the world. you are my sunshine, like literally. you're the bright part of my day, when i'm upset i can always go to you. you talk to me and you advise me, no matter how stupid the situation is. you are an amazing person in every single way. you're managing a perfect ten on everything, you've come out of this pain unscarred and beautiful. i only wish i could be someone like you. i love you.

liar.

Yes.
You are exactly that.

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mai puppy(:

you're letting her ruin us.

(: i love you laurennn!

I love you. <3

I'm packing.

For Camp.
First real event of the summer.

This time last year, Kayla and I were still best friends. But oh, do things change.

so

I made a little mistake. I wasn't quite honest. I fibbed, told a little white lie. I panicked, what would you have done? I mean, there's my secret that everyone already knew and now that I knew everyone knew it, it changed so many things. Our friendship, not that I don't want it back, that you ruined too. But you act like you're the only person who's never lied before, you act like you're perfect, you're portraying yourself as the victim. And since everyone's your friend, they believe you. Well yeah, I hope you're happy now. Really. I mean, no. You won't tell me who I can hang out with, you won't tell me who I can't. If you don't care to try to keep our friendship, then you don't have a reason to tell me what to do. But you'd better be happy. You get everything, and I mean everything, you could ever fucking want. But I'm starting to believe you're always going to want more, and that you'll never be happy.

volleyball season!

High school's gunna be great.(: