July fourth.

He stepped out of the car, smiled and said, "say we're going to your house." his aunt believed it. we started walking down the road, and we stopped in the pioneer playground. we played on the swing, he sort of pushed me. it was cute. and then i ran to the playground after telling him how much i missed this place. he followed, "you're crazy." and we sat there, i was on the blue thing, it spinned. he was sitting down next to me, monster in his hand. i took a drink, he took a drink, i took a drink and then i saw a wasp and then it started to rain a little. so we got under the big blue thing that looked like a jellyfish. we talked, we just talked. and then we went quiet, and then right there. at my old fifth grade school, four years later i got my first kiss with a beautiful boy named chris. at this point im (still) wearing his bracelet (today). he stood up and i did too, i came up behind him and kissed him again. i did a flip and he didn't help me down. we climbed on the big blue toy, he on one side me on the other. soon he scooted over to be closer to me. then a little boy came up, a scar on his chest from heart surgery and asked if we wanted some firecrackers. we played along. we kissed in -oh man - the basketball court. i remember how i'd asked brody out so many times in that very same place. who'd know i'd be kissing someone better four years later in that exact place? but the little boy asked if we were dating, and chris stayed quiet. i had to answer, "not quite." he chuckled and repeated me. after that i kind of walked away, he asked me where i was going and he said, "where are you going?" "over here." he followed me, so did the little boy. chris sat down beside me. the little boy stood up. me and chris just kissed in front of him lol. pretty soon me and chris just got up and left, we kissed in the opening of the big field. we went to the library, after that. sat on the bench and kissed.



i really cant go on. let's just say i'm hurt.