Reflection;

I really don't know how to start.

2011 was a big year.
I found friends and lost them, I loved and I lost. That same old shit. I lost a pure best friend, but I made a thousand new ones.

Mario, I still miss your scar on your chin, but Garrett's got a birth mark on his foot. I'm glad you've got someone now, even if it isn't official. I'm glad I got the closure from you that I needed, that last kiss was perfect. Thank you for what our relationship made me, I think maybe a part of me will always love you. But. Just, thanks.

Garrett, I honestly believe I'm on the way to loving you. Happy almost 2 months.

A letter to myself;

This year will be hard. Your grades are going to suffer big time this first semester, but second semester you will be okay. You will lose plenty of friends, but you will earn many more. Hopefully this doesn't happen, but if Garrett ever leaves, remember that eventually, no matter how sad you are or will be, somebody WILL come sweep you off your feet again just like someone did the first time. Please have hope and don't ever quit smiling. Don't cry. Okay, cry. But not for too long, because you are a beautiful person, inside and out. You deserve to be happy just like everyone else seems. If anything gets you down, which it will, you just have to remember that as hard as it seems smiling will make you a better person. Don't rush into things anymore. Let things flow naturally. And please just remember,
That one day, someday, everything will be okay.
I promise.
And as many times as I tell you that I hate you, remember. I will always love you. No matter how many mistake you make, I will love you when nobody else is there for you.

I repeat. I will always love you.