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it's over.
it's all over.
every little bit.

seventh grade, feels like a dream. like it wasn't even real, it happened so long ago. joey. everyone, it just doesn't seem real. especially joey. i remember, i fell so hard. so fucking hard. and now, a year and a half later, i'm thinking back on it and it doesn't seem like it ever happened. like i never knew a joey idlett. like he never changed my life.

middle school and it's adventures are nothing but the past. i can close the book and read it in my thirties and cry a little. middle school is over. all those memories are finally just little kid memories.

i'm so shocked. everything is over. i can start a new adventure, whilst remembering the old ones that made me grow up.
i've changed since the sixth grade, and now sixth grade feels like it was so long ago. like a thousand years tore me and my old self apart. i'm not the same, im different. and it's all because i grew up in a school that i loved.

and now i'm going on, moving on. things are changing for me. senior year, i probably won't remember any of this. feeling this way. but i know it will have been four years ago, and that just blows my mind.

i guess this blog is weird. what hurts is that joey kid. and how long ago it was that i fell for him, but yet it feels so... so much like yesterday.

but soon, today will be nothing but another yesterday and today, too, will be over. just, like, that.