i'm just a joke to you.

you and i are so distant now that it doesn't feel the same. missing you doesn't feel like it did before, because now i don't miss you at all.
all i do is get in your way and annoy you. i only cause, and i never clear.
and feeling like i've moved on has completely changed my outlook on life; i want you to know you changed me. you were apart of my story, but only long enough to teach me something valuable. and i guess, that when everything adds up, i'm thankful you haven't stayed any longer than you have.
you might have not known that this would happen anymore than i did, but i guess that's nature.
i was shattered, you broke my conscience and left me alone, but when you did that, you helped me adapt to abandonment.
and i used to call it all your fault, and i apologize. it wasn't your fault. it was just naturally what bestfriends were supposed to do. you left so that i could find someone else, that's what we do; that's just life. and now, thanks to you, i'm that much closer to understanding myself. thanks kayla.