World sucks.
So, I have no phone. Haven't had one for more than 8 months.
Oh why? Because I went to meet my then boyfriend at the mall. With two friends and Kayla's dad.
IN OCTOBER OF 2009.
I'm not allowed over at my neighbor's, because there was a party near his house.
NEAR. OH MY FUCKING GOD NEAR.
I'm not allowed at Devynn's because I didn't call for two days.
THE POINT OF LEAVING FOR THE WEEKEND IS NOT BEING IN CONTACT WITH HER, at least it is for me.
I'm not allowed to go anywhere else because she hasn't met my friends.
Well, tell me something. How are you supposed to meet them if you won't even give me the chance to introduce.
I'm not even allowed outside. Not to jog.
I have no life, just like her. She's making me a shut in.
I will not be a shut in.
She's making it so I'm unhappy just like her.
I will be happy.
I just won't fuck up.
I hope she's lived a damn good life, cause it's over for her.
The only pure enjoyment she gets is watching someone else suffer like her.
And that's going to end. Very soon.
I think I'm just gunna start coming home, without saying a word, go straight to my room.
And then when she tries to talk just give her one worded answers.
At least until she confronts me about it, so I can tell her she's literally mentally fucked up.
She's the damn prostitute.
I'm not pregnant.
So there.
I win.
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Oh my, you sound JUST LIKE ME when I was your age. My mother was psycho. Really! I remember getting grounded once for THREE MONTHS because I didn't call her when I left a friends house. Its hard to be a teenager, and its even harder when you don't have parents you can communicate with.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are going through this.