this is...

the journey to the center of the earth.

No, actually.
It's not.
It's the journey
Of a lifetime.
Literally.

I'm not looking,
But I'm catching up.
I'm learning,
And I'm leaving behind what I should leave behind.

I'm making a new.
I'm starting fresh.
But at the same time,
Everything can go both
ways.

I'll always remember,
Always.
No matter how much I wish I couldn't.
No matter how much I
Would sacrifice physical pain just to feel happy.

Yes, I'm talking about
Memory loss.
Insane memory loss.

I'm on a journey;
I'm finding who I am,
What my beliefs are.
I'm finding my emotions,
What my passion is.
I'm changing.

I'm getting away from the 15 years I knew nothing.
Away from the times I stumbled around,
Every single first I ever had, I'm getting away from the pain that followed.

I've got an out.

Are you jealous of me?